"Great poets have struggled through time to convey the inner experience of ongoing physical pain but Lous Heshusius accomplishes that task. While her writing is steady, educated, and reasoned, her personal reflections pack a cumulative punch to the reader, building on each other to convey layers of frustration, isolation, and struggle. Much of her suffering is not a result of her illness, but the medical system that is more geared toward treating acute pain than the kind that lingers and becomes a chronic illness in its own right. Meanwhile, the book counters entrenched and malignant cultural stereotypes of the female chronic-pain patient as hysterical and chronic pain as absolutely mysterious and inherently 'unknowable,' and thus medically untreatable. Those who haven't suffered chronic pain will get new insight, and long-time 'thick-folder patients' like me will experience a jolt of recognition with every turn of Heshusius's story. This book will be especially useful as a practical users' manual for caregivers to learn about routine, yet powerful, ways to improve patient care, and to address a critical related issue too often brushed under the rug: the high rates of suicide of these patients."—Paula Kamen, author of All in My Head: My Epic Quest to Cure an Unrelenting, Totally Unreasonable and Only Slightly Enlightening Headache and Finding Iris Chang: Friendship, Ambition and the Loss of an Extraordinary Mind