The Brokenness and Restoration of a Lost Soul

I held Daddy`s hand looking down into an empty hole, our basement of our new house being built, I didn`t know the horror that lay in wait for me! The basement wasn`t just a place to play dolls in! At the age of five , I was sexually assaulted by my brother there until we moved in the fourth grade! I was introduced to sexual things no little girl (or boy) should ever be! I told my mother, she looked at me coldly and said "Nice girls don`t act like that, never talk about this again"! I must not be "a nice girl" because it was happening to me, now I knew I had no one to help me! No one! As I grew up this terrible secret was making me sick! I tried anything, to get rid of this inside pain and still look "normal" outside! As I grew it took me down a dark spiral staircase into a world of sex, drugs, alcohol to numb the pain in my mind and heart which were growing darker, and harder by the moment! My life was raw, in your face! I tell it as I lived it! The pain will follow us through life, if we don`t face it, deal with it! I found hope on my quest to live a "normal" life! Take this journey with me, see there is hope for you as well!